My first blog!!!!

I figured since I have a seemingly incurable case of insomnia, I might as well take this opportunity to set up this blog I've been meaning to create. Originally, I wanted to create a blog chronicling my journey to reach my fitness and nutritional goals, but as it always seems to do, life has thrown me a curveball. I found out this week one of my older sisters has lung cancer and it was a devastating blow for me...all I could think was she is only 38...she's my sister...she's only 38!!! My family has already lost a wonderful aunt to this terrible disease, so the word cancer strikes fear in my heart. CANCER...that word kept echoing in my mind...I couldn't even process anything else my sister said after that point over the cacophony of my intense spontaneous bawling and the endless repeating of one deadly word in my mind...CANCER. CANCER. CANCER?!? But she's only 38! As if that meant she was immune or something! I spent the ENTIRE day bawling...you know the one-the intense cry that contorts your face...and then of course I had the world's worst crying hangover :( Felt like I was being stabbed in the head repeatedly and then banged on with a hammer. Not fun. At all. Also not conducive to sleep. So the latest run of insomnia began on Tuesday night. And I decided I needed to get out my feelings and thoughts on this subject to preserve my sanity. So I am going to keep this blog updated along the journey of my sister's fight against cancer...hopefully releasing my thoughts and feelings into the blogsphere will allow me to be the strength and support my sister needs me to be during the upcoming battle. That is all for now...good night!